I wrote this for you

Yes, you; I see you.

The pain behind your eyes and that soft smile, within the carefully selected words and tone. I find it in your gaze, steps or way you sit. The quiet sigh.

I know you are suffering.

You haven’t told me and the others don’t know. Maybe several don’t care. On certain days you feel invisible, tired and without purpose. Yet another day going through the motions. There’s a great disconnect between yourself and that which is around you.

You ask me why.

Why? When you aren’t seen. When you aren’t acknowledged. When you aren’t appreciated for what you do. When all of your time and effort seem in vain. When your energy is depleted, you are spent and tired, no longer able to see the point in anything and your sense of meaning is lost.

Let me start telling you why.

Someone, somewhere, is thinking and feeling the same thing. There are, right now, many someones at this same time. I was one of them… and we need each other. The ‘why’ comes after and is found together.

First, nothing about this is instant. It will still be hard and it’s going to take time. You will see it later, but only if you hold on. Listen, I know you’ve been holding on long enough, but you need to keep pushing in order to see why. And if you do, you will.

Things change, but not when and how you want them. I know it’s killing you, but pretty much everything tries to do that in this life. It’s a survival game before a thriving one and sometimes the former takes longer.

You might not like hearing this, but everything happens for a reason. That’s another ‘why’ I will address later, but let’s stick with the first one right now.

Change.

You change. Others change. Situations change.

Think about it, you aren’t the same person you were last year. You aren’t the same person you will be next year, either. Perspectives, realizations, beliefs, knowledge, everything gets challenged on a day-to-day basis.

You continue learning something new, daily, letting go of something old, adjusting worldviews, shifting values, challenging your notions or changing overall, without even realizing how different those around you continue growing, too.

From last year to yesterday and in that classic ‘five years from now’ scenario, at the same time as you, we’re all changing into different versions from who we once used to be.

It doesn’t come with announcements and occurs at a different pace with each individual, but that’s just as much of a comfort as it is annoyance.

Before we can go where we wish or need, we must change. Life circumstances align and misalign, shaping and forming us into that version of ourselves required to access or receive that next stage, along with the following chapter.

You are more than you think you are. Most times, you won’t see the influence and change you bring into others’ lives. They don’t tell you. Not because they don’t care, but oftentimes because their entire time and energy is poured into survival.

Remember, you haven’t always said everything, either, while also occasionally responding late to others. Not one, but many. It’s okay, though. Survival first. There’s time for regret later, now you must survive.

Avoid making lists of what is wrong with you and the entire world, while contemplating, distressed, why everything can’t fit into one life. Others will generously complain about you and everyone else, as they don’t have anything better to do with their time and don’t have much of a life, either. (see? you’re not the only one.)

Seriously, not only do they bring legitimate reasons of why ‘you suck,’ but they will also throw in bonus allegations consisting of made-up fiction, included in their package. It’s like… “really, you shouldn’t have.”

Yes, it sounds a little stupid. We are, as humans. Our systems, order and coping mechanisms are too. We aren’t perfect. The important thing is to keep trying. This is vague, for a reason. Apply it to your own circumstance.

Across your lifespan there will be a number of deaths and rebirths. You don’t need to mourn your life, only the former ego. The previous version of yourself that needs to deconstruct and collapse into the Self, before being rebuilt into a more refined and efficient, functional person.

Growing pains, baby.

Growing hurts at all stages of life. It will consist of different forms of pain. Remember, if you settle for comfort or what you think you ‘want,’ you risk locking yourself out of something greater.

Accept and allow the transformative change, even if you don’t like its direction. Don’t be afraid to be uncomfortable. If you are, stand bravely and step as if you have courage. That is how it works and there is where it starts.

You are becoming the person who will reach that next chapter. The reason why the current one is about change.

One more thing.

Confusing as life is, keep in mind, in actuality, you don’t believe what you think you believe. You believe something deeper than that. It will become clear once you stop resisting the change.

The hard days, the easy days, the pointless days or those filled with meaning, they are all changing you. All you have to do is let them.

It may sound fluffy and/or cringey, but the Universal Providence stars / blessings of God are aligning. Trust.

I hope this finds you. I have faith it will. From my heart to yours, after all, I wrote this for you. ❤️